June 3rd, 2019
Mods 1/2 Senior English.
Something about summer time always gets me excited! Maybe it's because of the warm weather, the gathering of friends my birthday or even Pride month! Either way, I'm excited to see what the future holds for me. This may be too personal but I'm not graduating this year with my friends. I wish I was but at the same time, I don't. This year has been a rough year, I'm responsible for it but only I can change this.
Next year, I plan on going to UTC (United Technologies Center) for a CNA "degree". I call it a degree because it makes me feel a bit better about myself, considering I'm not going to college. A waste of money and I can bet I won't pass the classes because I'm dumb lmfao. It's better to have a semi-future than none at all. Like I mentioned, I want to graduate this year but I know if I do, I won't be able to take the CNA courses and actually have a future. I'd rather stay another year in High school than walk out in my cap and gown and say: "Now what? Where do I go from here?"
I feel like some seniors have that mindset too, considering some classes at UTC are jokes. Quoted from friends of mine who actually took those classes. For example, Culinary class. AKA, do chores for chefs while they get all the credit. One of my friends told me that all they do is wash tables and take care of pans and almost NEVER cook. So, why have culinary if you're not going to teach kids how to cook? Not only that but they pick favorites. Sadly enough, I believe it. Another thing about culinary is they give you packet after packet. Here's some advice teachers, we're not going to pay attention if you give us papers and a textbook. It doesn't grab our attention, being hands-on or being creative is what grabs us. Sorry not sorry.
I'm now in chorus,at exactly 9:00 AM. It's very relaxing being able to sing after such a tiring class. Monday's are always the worst for me, long and boring. It's even worse when it's raining or cloudy or foggy out. It feels like it drags the day out completely. Another thing about me, music is my happy place. It's therapy for me. My heart belongs to it. Singing always helps me get my emotions out and tell my stories. I've always wanted some career in music. Either a music producer or an actual musician.
I don't know if I'd ever be good enough to perform on stage but when I do, it's heaven. I performed at the Portland High School Talent Show my sophomore year and it was amazing. I felt so loved, people I didn't even know were cheering me on and I rocked the house. Portland High was my home. I loved going to school at that time and you had to BEG me to stay home. I never once stayed home (that i remember) although Bangor High? Different story.
Now, I'm in english and I'm currently have a mini feast with my whole class. Pringles, Oatmeal Creme Pies and Nutty Buddy bars. I can't eat much right now, especially peanut butter because I don't have a water bottle with water in it. I can't keep going back and forth to the water fountain at the
END of the hall because of course, the closest one is "Out of Order". Ugh, Bangor High is such a joke. Kids get in trouble for wearing tank-tops
Scratch that, the FAT kids and the LOSERS get in trouble for wearing shorts and tank-tops. I'm currently wearing shorts that don't show my butt cheeks but I'm waiting for the minute I get told that I have to change my clothes or do the finger-tip test then it's war. I hate the fact that it's always the rejects that get told to change. You don't see any athletic chick who wears spandex shorts having to change, only because she's "in a sport". It shouldn't matter what you do in school, if we (rejects) have to follow dress code than so does everyone else.
I'm sure teachers have even stated that hair was a distraction and yes, I'm including race in this. People should be able to do whatever they want with their hair and clothing unless it's not distracting. Having cornrows? Go for it, that'd look amazing sweetie. Spaghetti straps? I don't see why not. That's also another question of mine. What's wrong with spaghetti straps? At least we're wearing a shirt! Why can boys have their pants sag to their butt cheeks but god forbid I show my shoulders? I might find a way to repeal that. "it shows too much skin," Okay? A crop top doesn't? Shorts don't? Tube tops don't? IF you're going to complain about one thing, COMMIT TO THE REST!!!!! Oh no, I, a female had decided to show my freakin shoulders. THROW ME TO THE HOGS!!
Literally, why is it such a big deal? Anyways, after school I'm getting a new mattress and box spring hopefully. Plus, my cousin is coming over (hopefully) to bring me some pods and juice for my vape pen. Let's hope I have a good rest of my day considering now all I have is lunch and study hall. I hope whoever reads this has an amazing rest (or start) to their day!! Mwah!!! ♥